Would The Real Terrio Please Stand Up

It’s a truth that I don’t like what I look like. Now, before y’all start barking at me, what I mean is that I don’t think my outside looks like my inside. Gee, that doesn’t sound right either. I guess I mean what I look like doesn’t match who I am.

I might be having an identity crisis.

Let me give a “for instance”. I went to a Nickelback concert a couple years ago with a group of people. Ages ranged from near forty to six years old. I stood next to a 15 year old kid. For some reason, I kept getting twinges that I shouldn’t be screaming my fool head off, singing along with every word, and dancing like I forgot my pole in the parking lot. What can I say? I’m a headbanger from way back and I LOVE Nickelback. Have you heard that growl Chad Kroeger does? ‘Nuff said.

On the other hand, I can do a pretty good two step and feel as at home at a George Strait concert as I do at a Nickelback show. Then there’s the me who is taking my daughter to the Opera next month. Oh, and the me who has spent this week listening to the latest Ne-Yo CD on loop on my iPod. The Year of the Gentleman. Awesome. Highly recommend it.

Not that I think judging a book by its cover is always a good idea, but for most people you can get a sense of who they are upon first meeting them. All based on their outward appearance. Their style of dress, their hair color or cut. There’s something special about most everyone that sets them apart.

I don’t think I stand apart. I’m….dare I say it….ordinary. Vanilla. Gah! I hate that word. LOL! Maybe it’s that I’m too eclectic to look like any one thing. Yeah, that sounds better. I’m not ordinary, I’m deceptively eclectic.

Do you think who you appear to be on the outside is who you are on the inside? Is there something *special* about you that people notice right off? (A good kind of special here.) Could it be I’m just trying to cling to my youth as I creep ever closer to forty? While I’m asking silly question, anyone willing to nominate me for one of those make over shows so I can change up the look?

15 thoughts on “Would The Real Terrio Please Stand Up”

  1. MsHellion says:

    I don’t look remotely like a hellion or a pirate in person. Except perhaps at Halloween, which I don’t think counts.

    I look like a schoolteacher. Which I most definitely am not.

    If my outer matched my inner, I’d look like Angela Jolie. With an eyepatch.

  2. terrio says:

    But see, you have that sparkle in your eye that is a combination of “You don’t want to mess with me” and “You have no idea what I could do to you”. LOL! Besides, the minute you open your mouth, everyone knows you’re a hellion.

    Though I’m liking the Angelina with an eye patch image. This is totally you. LOL!


  3. irisheyes says:

    I think I seem calmer and more laid back than I really am. I’m very passive and non confrontational. I think that has a bearing on how I appear to a lot of people. I don’t usually go nuts in public, but can be a volcano in private – ask the DH! First time I went off on him he just stared at me, mouth open and said “wow, you can be really nasty when you want to be!” I was very ashamed of myself afterwards. I stuff a lot and when I spew, I spew big time!

    I remember always feeling as if I was older than my physical body. I remember thinking all of my friends and schoolmates were immature and silly. I don’t know whether that was a product of being the youngest in a large family and wanting to be older all the time or not. It wasn’t until I met the DH and loosened up a bit that I realized it wasn’t a bad thing to let loose and be silly every once in a while. Now that I’m older I feel the opposite. I seem so old and responsible on the outside and have all these inappropriate and silly thoughts on the inside!

    I think it’s a funny phenomenon that our bodies age, but our minds don’t. Or I guess it’s more that the way we see ourselves is always as a younger version of who we are. I see that a lot in my dealings with my kids. They’re always surprised when they catch either my husband or I acting un-adult like (probably more me than him – nothing he does really shocks them anymore! LOL) In fact he’s one of the few people I know who lives comfortably in both worlds – the responsible adult with the spontaneity and wimsy of a child.

  4. terrio says:

    Irish – Most everyone in my family is laid back, but I got my dad’s temper. Takes me a while to get mad, but when I do, the wall shake. I’ve worked for years to control and am much slower on the trigger than I used to be. 🙂

    Great point about aging on the outside and not the inside. When I was 29, I felt the exact same as I did when I was 19. But once I got into my 30s, I felt like a grown up. However, grown up doesn’t have to be old. At least I don’t think so.

    The Capricorn in my doesn’t like to do anything too childish. But I’ve been known to break into a silly dance for my kiddo. She usually looks at me like I’ve lost it. I like that I can still surprise her.

    Maybe it’s that that young girl we once were is still inside. Trapped in this older body. I can tell you, she’s not happy how we turned out. LOL!

  5. I look like a hard bitch when I’m really all smooshy inside.

    I wish I had some smooshy outsides.

    And I don’t think you look ordinary, Terrio.

    I think you’re gorgeous, and i think your insides are gorgeous-er.

  6. I’m all conventional, twin-set, bob and tortoise shell glasses on the outside. Inside, strange stuff is going on. There are so many real mes I feel schizophrenic. I am definitely not as conservative as I look.

  7. Janga says:

    I’ve known too many steel magnolias to think appearances reveal the inner person. 🙂

    Here’s a long quote from Madeleine L’Engle, but it’s one of my favorites, so I posting it anyway. 🙂

    “I am still every age that I have been. Because I was once a child, I am always a child. Because I was once a searching adolescent, given to moods and ecstasies, these are still part of me, and always will be… This does not mean that I ought to be trapped or enclosed in any of these ages…the delayed adolescent, the childish adult, but that they are in me to be drawn on; to forget is a form of suicide… Far too many people misunderstand what *putting away childish things* means, and think that forgetting what it is like to think and feel and touch and smell and taste and see and hear like a three-year-old or a thirteen-year-old or a twenty-three-year-old means being grownup. When I’m with these people I, like the kids, feel that if this is what it means to be a grown-up, then I don’t ever want to be one. Instead of which, if I can retain a child’s awareness and joy, and *be* fifty-one, then I will really learn what it means to be grownup.”
    (A CIRCLE OF QUIET, 199-200)

  8. terrio says:

    J – You are all smoosh when you smile. So smooshie I want to squeeze your cheeks! (NOT those cheeks!)

    Maggie – I bet it’s fun to fool people though. Grandma, librarian, erotica writer. LOL! How many times are you going to see those three descriptions in the same sentence?

    Janga – I keep saying I’m going to post all these fantastic quotes of yours where I can see them. I think it would be much better just to carry you with me all the time. What do you think? LOL!

    That quote is priceless. I never think of it that way. I’m always so focused on the future, I forget to look back and enjoy the past. I do like most of the women I’ve been. I need to embrace them all.

  9. Um…I think you’re beautiful!!! Forget the makeover! Leave those to people who really need them, like like Rosie O’Donnel.

  10. terrio says:

    Awe, Kelly, now you’re making me all smooshie. LOL! Though I do love a mutual admiration society. Thank you for the sweet words, but I was thinking more along the lines of getting $5G in clothes for free. LOL! Wouldn’t that be cool?!

  11. Oh! Yes, the money!!! If I recommend you to What No To Wear,(we’re going to have to go shopping at the Salvation Army for this to work!!) will you split the cash with me? $2,500 ain’t bad!
    Or we could tell them we’re fraternal twins! And they can do a double-makeover!lol. This could work!

    PS: You are never EVER too old to scream at a Nickelback concert-you wouldn’t be human if you could stop yourself.lol.

  12. Anonymous says:


    I just want to look like me without pimples and definately no chicken pox scar at the tip of the nose. I would also love a thinner face. Sheez, maybe I REALLY don’t want to look like me?!

    I do want my body back when I was 24. Gahhhh, I WANT that body back. The one I had before I got pregnant and destroyed all normalcy.


  13. terrio says:

    IG – You know you only get better with age. Believe it or not, I’m smaller now than I was when I was 24. Unfortunately, that still leaves me 30lbs too big. LOL!

  14. Quantum says:

    I think I should call this post ‘A view from my window’.
    Outside a blizzard is raging but the comp screen gives me a view onto the global scene!

    On one or two occasions I have met an actor that I know well as a character from radio and invariably the appearance is utterly different from what I had envisaged. For example I once took part in a charity quiz hosted by a celebrity who I envisaged as tall and slim. In reality he was of course short and fat.

    When I meet someone in person though, I reckon I’m a pretty good judge of character. Forget dress and shape, though those can give useful indicators. The eyes and facial expression give the most away immediately. After a short (~ 30 mins) conversation, while closely observing the face and eyes, I reckon I have 75% of the character. The remaining 25% might just be the devil incarnate of course, but my experience indicates that these first impressions are pretty accurate.

    Approaching 40 must be daunting, but take heart, once your through the barrier its downhill all the way! *wink*
    And I don’t think you have any problems ‘impression wise’ Terri *smile*

    I think I’m going to start collecting Janga’s quotes. This one, as always, is brilliantly illuminating!

  15. Anonymous says:

    There are currently 14 comments on the 14th of Feb….it must be a prompt!

    Sending very special good wishes to a Very Special Lady on a very special day.

    An admirer from afar.

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