I wanna go to Disney World

Complete 180

on March 24, 2008

It’s funny what a difference a week can make. It’s Spring Break this week. My kiddo is in Disney World with her father. And yes I’m trying to pretend it’s not bothering me that I’m NOT there for her first trip to Disney World nor have *I* ever been there. Really, I’m fine with it. See how slowly my eye is twitching?

Anyhoo, last week was frantic with the finals and the packing, the softball and all the driving. Not to mention that pesky day job. This week, it’s the opposite. No school, homework or exams. No softball, daycare, or spelling pre-tests to give. Just me and the pesky day job. Very odd.

I should be used to these lulls but I still never know what to buy at the grocery store. I just stand there thinking of all the things I *don’t* have to buy and wind up with an empty buggy. When someone asks if I can do something after work, my first thought is always that I have to pick her up before I realize no, I don’t. Any mother reading this is thinking how utterly wonderful it sounds to have complete freedom. No one depending on them. No one to cook for or clean up after.

It is nice in a way. But when you’re used to going 90 to nothing all the time, it’s just weird when it all stops. Just in case this sounds like I’m complaining, let me assure you, I’m not. I mean, I miss her like crazy but, when I got home Saturday night around 8:30 and realized I didn’t have to be anywhere or do anything for the next 36 hours, it felt like paradise. Quiet paradise.

So no whining this week. Not from me anyway. But I’m sure lots of you aren’t so lucky. Are you’re kids out for Spring Break? Are you free of kids but have to deal with obnoxious college students coming to your town for Spring Break? Are you hating me right now and contemplating googling my address so you can send your kids to me? *LOL* Since I live near the beach and can see something just like that picture above all the time, it might not be such a bad idea.

One of THOSE Weeks

on March 20, 2008

I realize I whine about the chaos in my life on a regular basis. All I can say is “this is my blog and I’ll cry if I want to.” *g* But this week is one of those chaotic weeks that make the others seem like a cake walk.

It’s the week before a holiday and the week before my child goes on a trip. A trip that requires me to drive her over 500 miles to the ex. I’m pretty used to hopping in the truck for these little adventures of ours. I don’t even mind the solitude of the drive home alone. I usually get lots of plotting done and if I find a good one, get an entire audiobook listened to start to finish.

But the lead up is what bothers me. For some reason, these are the weeks some extenuating circumstance creeps up and throws a monkey wrench into my plan to stay on top of things. Thanks to the start of softball and a school talent show, my house is a mess, packing is not done, dishes are not done. I have one final to take (of course this has to be finals week!) and I need sleep if I’m going to survive the next two 16 to 18 hour days, most of those hours behind the wheel.

Every night I say I’m going to bed early. Never happens. To be fair, this issue is not unique to this week. I simply have no discipline.

Next week will be better. I can exhale, get the house clean, and maybe even get some writing done. Notice I say maybe. *grumbles at stupid procrastinating self*

Ever have one of THOSE weeks? Months? Years? Any meditation techniques, cleaning service phone numbers, or effective hiding places you’d like to share?

PS: I googled “chaos” in images and got that cute little guy up top. He’s a boxer puppy and his name is Chaos. Isn’t he just the cutest thing?!